Post by Shadow Gash on Mar 2, 2011 0:13:10 GMT -5
What I'd give if I could just stop certain points in time. Things that I regret the most. The death of my sister. My niece and nephew. Meteor leaving...Manx'...death. I had it, something that gave me hope that I wasn't just a cold hearted bastard that everyone made me out to be. Yet as fast as I gained happiness, even quicker it was taken away from me. I have one to blame, Cola....Battery Cola.
She...she saved me, at one point, but when I look back, I think it was for a price. She never really cared, why would she care about a stranger, especially one that was going to commit suicide. I believe she wanted to have someone she could have some control and mold into what she wanted. She didn't expect me to become independent like so, to gain happiness. Stellar Manx, she...she understood, she was my first love. I'm not ashamed to admit it now. I'm sad that it took me long to even realize what was happening.
It was partially my fault for not realizing it, and I blame her, for keeping me in check. If I had time, just a little bit more time I could of saved her...if I knew what I know now she wouldn't need that operation of hers....
After I found out the news, I blamed C, I had to and for good reasons. I left, without a word said, she'd be fine with her new boy toy anyways, she got what she wanted. As for me, I could give a crap about her now...I'm Shadow Gash and this, this is what it is.
She...she saved me, at one point, but when I look back, I think it was for a price. She never really cared, why would she care about a stranger, especially one that was going to commit suicide. I believe she wanted to have someone she could have some control and mold into what she wanted. She didn't expect me to become independent like so, to gain happiness. Stellar Manx, she...she understood, she was my first love. I'm not ashamed to admit it now. I'm sad that it took me long to even realize what was happening.
It was partially my fault for not realizing it, and I blame her, for keeping me in check. If I had time, just a little bit more time I could of saved her...if I knew what I know now she wouldn't need that operation of hers....
After I found out the news, I blamed C, I had to and for good reasons. I left, without a word said, she'd be fine with her new boy toy anyways, she got what she wanted. As for me, I could give a crap about her now...I'm Shadow Gash and this, this is what it is.
Yes, I'm still running - sort of. But it is lonely out here. Haven't seen anyone else for a while.
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